The Voice of Bitterness

My life testimony began at two years old, however, when I filed for divorce in 2012, I was determined to not let bitterness become my identity. I did not want to be a bitter woman, hating all men, no longer believing in love, and becoming a monster to my children because I was experiencing hell on earth. I filed for divorce due to infidelity. It was going on at least a year before I found out. It was a pain I have never experienced before. Divorce is traumatic, it's like a death and when there are children involved your children are going through the pain from the divorce as well. 

During separation the couple have to sever things they shared. The pain I experienced wanted me to abruptly cancel accounts and cause a bitter mess before I left. If I allowed bitterness to speak for me someone would’ve been in jail or I would have prolonged the pain and I did not want that and my children did not deserve that. God helped me to go about it with integrity. I had to dish out money to start over to make sure the household I was leaving was covered for a short time so they could continue what was needed. God helped me to do the right thing instead of submitting to bitterness. Was it hard to push past the pain? Absolutely, but I chose to trust God’s love for me and my children and that strengthened me to resist the desires of my flesh.

“See that no one pays back evil for evil, but always try to do good to each other and to all people.”~1Thess 5:15 {NLT}

Hebrews 12:15 {NLT} says, “Work at living in peace with everyone, and work at living a holy life, for those who are not holy will not see the Lord. Look after each other so that none of you fails to receive the grace of God. Watch out that no poisonous root of bitterness grows up to trouble you, corrupting many.” Bitterness is a contamination that leaks out on others. Bitterness is a trap to continue generational curses and trauma in your family’s bloodline if you don’t sever it by the power of the name of Jesus, faith and action. Think about it…who is frequently angry in your family? Anyone hostile, reacting to innocent questions with a tone of disgust, critical, blame shifting, frequently avoiding holding themselves accountable? Anyone goes into victim mode bringing up past disappointments sounding like a tape recorder?

If you have bitterness in your heart I encourage you to give it to God. I did not say “let it go”. I said give it to God. There is an exchange to be made between you and the Father. The bottom line of Jesus' ministry was for Him to take our sins as well as the sins of this world upon him in order to reconcile us back in relationship with God. Since the beginning of humanity God has fought for you to return to intimacy with him. Through the ministry, death and resurrection of his Son Jesus Christ, he desires for you to be free from the stronghold of sin, bitterness and unforgiveness.

I pray you take this message to the Lord and ask him if there is bitterness and unforgiveness in your heart and if he says yes, begin the journey of healing and freedom with him.

Weekly Reflection

“Watch out that no poisonous root of bitterness grows up to trouble you, corrupting many.”

Hebrews 12:15 {NLT}